From "“Have you heard of Oscar Wilde?" by STEPHEN FRY: For a gay youth growing up in the early ’70s, a library was a way of showing I was not alone. There was an element of breathtaking possibility,even the chance of a fumbled encounter, but there was vindication too. Some of the best, finest, truest, cleverest minds that ever held a pen in their hands had been like me. What does "a fumbled encounter" allude to? Thanks for response.