I’d have found it difficult

[Sherlok]

Hello everyone. 😊 😊 😊
Can you explain to me what this exactly means: "I’d have found it difficult to say".
I am wondering if there is the "would" or "had" or maybe here is the "would" in the form like "used to in the past".
I've got confused with it.

Here is the full sentence where I got it.

"If I tended to dwell on all the things I wasn’t, the reason was simple. Those were the things I knew best. I’d have found it difficult to say what or who exactly I was, or might become. Like all my friends I wanted to be successful."

Thanks for advance

 

[Simo Ita]

Hello everyone. 😊 😊 😊
Can you explain to me what this exactly means: "I’d have found it difficult to say".
I am wondering if there is the "would" or "had" or maybe here is the "would" in the form like "used to in the past".
I've got confused with it.

Here is the full sentence where I got it.

"If I tended to dwell on all the things I wasn’t, the reason was simple. Those were the things I knew best. I’d have found it difficult to say what or who exactly I was, or might become. Like all my friends I wanted to be successful."

Thanks for advance

It is the Past Conditional so in this case 'd is would.

Had needs to be followed by a past participle.

I hope it helps

 

[sound shift]

Hello everyone. 😊 😊 😊
Can you explain to me what this exactly means: "I’d have found it difficult to say".
I am wondering if there is the "would" or "had" or maybe here is the "would" in the form like "used to in the past".

You can eliminate "had" because "I had have found it difficult to say" is ungrammatical and meaningless. That just leaves "would". The structure is the past conditional, as Simon Ita says.