left to myself I abandoned myself


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The context comes from Jane Eyre Chapter 8

Ere the half-hour ended, five o'clock struck; school was dismissed, and all were gone into the refectory to tea. I now ventured to descend: it was deep dusk; I retired into a corner and sat down on the floor. The spell by which I had been so far supported began to dissolve; reaction took place, and soon, so overwhelming was the grief that seized me, I sank prostrate with my face to the ground. Now I wept: Helen Burns was not here; nothing sustained me; left to myself I abandoned myself, and my tears watered the boards.
Hi everyone! I don't quite understand "left to myself I abandoned myself". Does it mean "Be in the position of being alone, I cried unrestrainedly" ?
  • entangledbank

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    English - South-East England
    Yes. Normally 'abandoned' would be followed by more: I abandoned myself to despair, for example, or to my feelings. Some such emotion is implied. That is, I let the emotion consume or dominate me, without fighting against it.
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