Part of me

[sobhan]

He nods, waiting for me to go on. Part of me wants him to stop me, to ask more questions, but he
doesn’t, he just waits. It gets darker still.
what does part of me mean?
Source: The Girl On The Train, Paula Hawkins

 

[Barque]

I have a half-formed feeling that I want him to stop me.
I'm undecided between wanting him to stop me and wanting to go on.